February 4, 2010

So, Jeff and I get up, and having read the book that Bonnie got us, I knew that I needed to drink lots of water. So, I took my Camelbak water bottle and filled it up with 32 oz. of cold H20. We loaded up the truck and proceeded to Lexington to meet my new doctor, Dr. Julie Ashmun. I was really nervous. I had read in the book also, that we might hear the heartbeat today! So, I was pretty nervous, excited, hesitant (because everything in the world could go wrong, right?). Jeff didn't let on like he was nervous, but I think he was.

When we got there, one of the girls that works in the office was out due to a death in her family, and we were sent all over the place. We were sent to the finance office to set up our entire pregnancy. We were sent to ultrasound. I had to go get poked with needles, and pee in three cups (which wasn't too much of an issue given the 32 oz. of H2O previously mentioned).

The hard thing was everyone kept asking me over and over again the date of my last period, and when we were in ultrasound, there was no heartbeat. My heart sank. The nice lady in ultrasound printed out our pictures of a gestational sac, and the corpus luteum on my left ovary. As a side note, the corpus luteum is the collection of cells that collect on the ovary that last produced an egg. When you are pregnant, these cells provide initial support to the developing embryo. But, again, no heartbeat. They handed me a piece of paper with the pictures on it folded in half and stapled shut and asked me to give this paper to the doctor.

I, of course, opened it. It said that the progression matched 4.5 weeks. Based on my last period, I should've been like 6 or 7 weeks. We went into the doctor's office, and I was even more nervous. I hate writing that, because I couldn't tell you what Jeff was thinking at this point. In these types of situations, he is the silent, strong, optimistic type. So, if he was even scared at all, I didn't see it.

We went into the doctor's office, and she told us that there was no heartbeat present in the gestational sac. She said it could be one of two things: 1) There is a sac that didn't/won't develop a fetus or 2) I'm not as far along as I thought.

She scheduled a 2nd ultrasound two weeks later. Now, we wait with cautious optimism.