Today

Dear Nugget,

Almost ½ way through this journey together, huh? Are you getting excited? You probably don’t even know to be getting excited. But, you should be.  The blog has been pretty light, and boy are we blessed to have people in our lives that care about us so much that they remind me when I haven’t written in a while, but you see, Daddy and I have been so busy preparing for your arrival.

 

We close on the sale of our house in Louisville on Wednesday, so the preparation for that has been a lot, and I have only felt about 10% of it. Your Daddy has handled nearly all of it, from arranging the sale, to getting the house ready for the showings, keeping it clean, mowing the yard, planting flowers, painting, and arranging the movers.  He has also been working on the purchase side, from arranging the mortgage, the down payment, the finances in general, and the communication on the new house.  It’s all been very stressful on him, and I have only had to work on some of it and struggle with a feeling of being overwhelmed.  We are lucky to have him.

 

Today, I had a conversation with an old friend of mine, who I’m sure had the best of intentions, but really made me nervous about being the best mom I can to you. She gets to leave every day by 4pm, and well, that isn’t how my job is structured. Nugget, I have always worked hard to have a stable and progressive career, and thank the Lord in the heavens above, have done well for myself.  I make great money and have great benefits, and I don’t worry about the company I work for going out of business any time soon. I am good at what I do.  However, I have never worked less than 60 hours a week. So, I am trying to figure out how to balance your needs, and our family’s need for the income that my career has provided. My boss has told me that we will figure it out. He says if you’re sick, I take my laptop home, take care of you, and fit in what I can. The pressure isn’t from them, it’s from me. I always worry I’m not carrying my weight, and I have seen how those things can play out over time. So, here is my commitment to you, Daddy and I will always make sure you feel love, know that someone is with you, and I will do everything I can to make every recital, concert, match, game, or whatever else you have going on. I will nurse you when you are sick, and will stay with you when you can’t sleep or have a nightmare. I will help you with your homework, and ensure that we take time to do things together so that you experience every experience that may enrich your life, or is just plain fun. I will work hard to keep you enveloped in the village that already loves you so dear, so that you always have a strong support system that extends beyond me and Daddy. I will continue to grow and nurture my relationship with your Daddy.  I’ll do the best I can.

 

All my love,

Mom